Tuesday, July 1, 2008

Mommy Guilt....

So my etsy shop is currently closed till July 5th but I am seriously considering closing it for good. I have been receiving orders locally and a couple here and there from my website http://www.gracefulbabies.com on top of etsy orders. Alchemy has been good to me but I took on too much and my kids are suffering (my physical and mental health too....NEED SLEEP!) So I am not sure what to do. Its summer and I want to be in the pool with my kids, going to the park, playing dress up, and just hanging and enjoying their childhood. Instead I am behind a sewing machine, losing sleep and stressing about deadlines. I started online selling to have a creative outlet. I love to sew, its relaxing and fun, but I need to compensate for my fabric addiction by bringing some money in.
The last straw that made me close for a while was we were at the park....I escaped for a bit and I had given my daughter (she is three) a hug and told her I loved her and she replied "oh mommy you love your sewing".....I felt like dying! I was crushed...she is so inuitive and I just didnt realize you felt that way. So I am closing doors till the 5th and then decided what to do till then. My kids and husband are my life and I need to focus on what is truley important :)

2 compliments:

brightonEarly said...

oh no! I don't even sew as much as you probably do. I don't have kids either. I can't imagine how much that is to handle. Hope your Fourth lets you get some rest!

Debye said...

I feel your pain!!! I had to post an announcement on my store that I wasn't going to add or relist any items until August, I didn't want to spend my whole summer observing my kids playing in the backyard...I want to join in on the fun!

It is a really hard balance, sewing takes so much time and orders become a love/hate thing :o)

Good for you for recognizing it and doing something about it, even if it is just temporary.